So I was ‘talking’ to a blogger friend today, you know, about this and that. Afterward, I was thinking how strange and wonderful it is that, although we are scattered all over this planet, we share the same pain; we walk down the same dark roads…
This is a letter I wrote to myself several years ago. I used to have a picture of me as a baby and I addressed the letter to her…as far as I know, they’re the only words of encouragement that child ever got…
Hello Baby Girl,
If I could, I would like to wrap my arms around you and run, far, far away. The darkness would never find you. Cruel words and terrible deeds would never tear your soul apart. Shameful tears would never fall from your eyes. The bitter sting of rejection would never wound you so deeply. Death would never seem like the lesser of any evils.
If I could, Baby Girl, I would like to make your way easier. Take away so much that would cause you pain, damage you in ways most people can’t imagine. And I would like to prevent so many mistakes from being made, choices that only compound all of the sorrow.
The road, the life that lies ahead of you is hard, almost unbearable, and dark. But if I were given the ability to change it for you, Baby Girl, I would not. You must be strong. If you look, you will find light in the darkness, laughter in the midst of the tears and strength to endure in the pain. Cruelty will teach you compassion and sorrow will teach you wisdom. And though it may seem to take forever, good does overcome evil and finds those who wait for it.
I’m sorry, Baby Girl, for the things that await you, for you will always bear the scars of hidden wounds. But you will survive. Furthermore, you will find happiness that, before, you would never have been able to imagine. You will find courage you never dreamed you had. And, more importantly, you will be able to help pull others from the devouring darkness. Even love will find you, though you will run from it at first. And one day, you will be able to look back at your life and say, “If I could go back and change things, I wouldn’t do it. It’s been worth it all.”
Cherish hope, Baby Girl, and don’t ever give up.
And I’ll see you around….