Monthly Archives: September 2010

>Where I’ve Been


 Wow, can you believe I haven’t been on the computer since I left it sometime Thursday evening? It’s been that crazy.

I’ve been working on a short story-fan-fiction kind of thing. I got a good bit of it done at work Friday during nap time….yeah, I forgot it in my drawer-at work….duh!

I’m also trying to wrap my head around some new laws and regs that are coming into effect very soon regarding daycare. Co-Teacher and I, as well as Director and Assistant, are trying to get a head start on re-doing rooms-again!

 I’m all about safety and doing what’s best for the kids, but some things are just ridiculous. And it really stinks that some things get taken away because of lazy people abusing a privilege. Sorry-venting.

I’ve also been trying to keep/catch up with my homework. I’m hanging onto the fact that next semester I get to take a class that I actually want to take. A science class-geology (I like earth sciences-I really don’t like life sciences). Then I’m done!!!!!

After that, I’ll look into another English class or a writing class-just for me and not because anyone is requiring it of me.

I also have to do more work on the project for the co-op class….but some of that has to change now, too. Sigh…..

That antique hutch we got from Honey’s grandmother? It had wood mold on it. I’ve been doing research online and trying everything under the sun to get rid of it.

Finally, I asked Nephew if there was anything at his work that could do the job. (He is currently working for a company that comes in after a fire or a flood/water damage and cleans up and out and repairs, etc.) Sure enough, he mixed up a bottle full of magic for me and I went to town last weekend.

I waited the whole week to see if it was going to grow back. (That’s what has taken so long-waiting to see if it’s coming back. I don’t like having to take stuff out, rewash it, and do it all over again.) I’ve found that wood mold grows pretty quickly. Good news! No sign of it. So, I cleaned the hutch again, polished it, rewashed all the dishes and filled that sucker up. Now, I have an organized kitchen that I can actually work in. Whew!

And today-well, let me back up a sec. Roo found my sister in law, Pooh, one night. Pooh called us and, in the end, Roo came to live with us. Pooh had given her an over the counter flea treatment. Hmmmm. When we took her for her check up (her eyes are doing great!), we learned that they’re back. So, we treated both Roo and Kitty Boss, the carpet and all the rugs, and washed everything they’ve lain on.

It’s been busy. And it’s taken pretty much all my time. It may be Tuesday before I can get to everyone’s blog to catch up, but I will do it.

Till then, I hope you all have had a restful weekend and that the coming week is full of wonderful surprises.

BTW-I don’t know where all of you live, but it’s been glorious here-much needed rain, gray, shadowy, leaves on wet pavement, a gentle breeze….mmmmmm, contentment!


>The TV Blogfest…A Few Days Late!


It’s getting late and I really need to get some sleep. I’m trying to get some posts scheduled ahead of time. I have many many things to get done this week…..

I just learned today (Monday) of the Top 10 TV Shows blogfest. Ah. A day late and a dollar short. That’s the cyber me….

Like another blogger I read this evening, I’m not posting pictures. Or even a brief synopsis. Just making a list.

Time restraints, donchyaknow?

In no particular order:

1. NCIS-Gibbs. Ziva. Abby. Wow.

2. White Collar-Just plain cool.

3. Psych-Humor. Mystery. Antics. Shenanigans. And homage to all sorts of shows and movies. Clever.

4. Covert Affairs-New. Action. Intrigue. Hope it lasts.

5. Dr. Who-Met him in the late 70’s. Chris Eccleston. David Tennant. Matt Smith. It’s the Doctor. What more do you need?

6. Dragonball Z-Goku. Anime at it’s best. Adventure. Humor. Goku.

7. Avatar: The Last Airbender-The TV cartoon on which the movie was supposed to be based. Aang. Zuko. Honor. Wisdom. Humor. Sacrifice. Zuko.

8. I Dream of Jeannie-The reason I want to be a belly dancer. In my own home, of course.

9. Home Improvement-Though it depicted men as insensitive and stupid, it’s where I got a lot of my father figure fix. As a grown up. I learned a lot from that family. Also from the Cosby Show…..

10. Scooby Doo/The Flintstones/The Jetsons-The trio of toons my sister and I would crawl out of bed for at the crack of dawn every Saturday morning. We would sit on the floor in front of the TV, and attempt to pour Captain Crunch into our bowls without spilling milk all everywhere.

***and an honorable mention***

Top Gear-If you like cars or crazy stunts or contests and like to laugh, you really should check it out on BBC America.

Wow. I nearly kept to the rules on this one. Can I get a star? Half of one?

>A Song For DreamSinger. And His Creations…..

>Have you ever looked back to your high school years and thought about how naive and arrogant you were? I have.

When I was a Junior, my English teacher read us an article about whether or not people (readers, editors, etc.) should disregard an author’s intent and apply their own. I passionately argued that the only interpretation, the only conclusion, the only viewpoint that mattered or was right, was the author’s. I felt people did not have the right to see it differently. It was fundamentally wrong to me.

Boy, my inexperienced opinion was only a step or two above wanting to dictate what people should think…about anything! Thankfully, I have moved way beyond such narrow-minded misconceptions and opinions!

We each bring to the table, or pages, our own perceptions, experiences, lenses and moods, coloring our interpretations with shades different from what the author originally used. That’s what makes reading a great book with characters that you grow to love and/or admire, such a personal experience.

It’s much the same with music. I’m not talking about all the different preferences we have. I’m talking about the soundtracks.

I love the soundtrack from The Book of Eli. I also love the one from The Big Chill. If I’ve read a book and feel really close to the characters, invariably, I will hear songs that remind me of them.

Saigon Kick has a song called All I Want. I think it’s perfect for Edward’s feelings for Bella. INXS’ Afterglow is perfect for the end of the first Odd Thomas book. You may have read these books and know these songs and completely disagree.

So, what’s your point, you ask.

It’s this: I have music that I listen to when I think about scenes for my MC and MS. While for my story the music may mean one thing, it could easily mean something different for someone else’s story-have a different tone, invoke different moods or feelings.

Here are two that I hear and see with my MC, but when I hear them, they also make me think of Roland’s characters. I had two others but couldn’t find a video for one of them and the other is pretty long (8 minutes) and I didn’t want to overload you.

This one is for Sam and Roland and the other male characters who’ve struggled through a hard life and seek solace and redemption, even though I think the latter isn’t needed in the way they believe….

And this one is, primarily, for the fallen angel, but also for all the ladies (and their gentlemen) with tortured souls who long so badly for their loves:

Let me know what you think of my picks, I’m curious.

Here are the lyrics to both songs. They are not mine. They belong to Dead Can Dance and I, in no way, intend to use them for any kind of profit in any way whatsoever.

Favored son
Turn in the garden
Shades of one
Sins forgotten
Favored signs to find hope
In the rounds of life
Favored rhymes to find hope
In the sands of life
Favored son
Fence in your heart
Saviored son
Sins forgotten

Enigma of the Absolute
Saloman hung down her head
Laid bare her heart
for the world to see
She craved for intimacy
Through the darkened doors
Her aspect veiled with indecision
Gazed out to sea
She craved lucidity
Cast adrift
from past relationships 
in her life
Hoisted up the ideal
This was her saving grace
Sea's of rage
That once assailed
her concern for the truth
Had past her by
And left her high and dry
In her saviors arms
In her saviors arms
In her saviors arms
Across the sea
lies the fountain of renewal
Where you will see
The whole cause of your loneliness
Can be measured in dreams
That transcend all these lies
and I wish and I pray
That there may come a day
for a saviors arms
for a saviors arms
for a saviors arms
for a saviors arms

Tomorrow, I will post what I see when I hear the music....

(on my preview, the words to the enigma of the absolute are not together...but they are on the compose screen...?)

>Award Winning Rule Breaking……Huh?


I’m sure you all are familiar with the term irony, right? Well, guess what happened just after I did the post about the lost info awards? I visited Donna Hole….and she had an award for me! Hahahahaha…..I don’t know if I deserve awards, but I DO know I can’t be trusted to keep up with them! So I’m passing this along ASAP so it doesn’t get misplaced somewhere. 

BTW, if you haven’t met Donna, go over and check her out. She writes with an honesty and vulnerability that belies her underlying strength. She also has LOTS in common with me, which makes me worry for her a bit….

Her excerpts are pretty darn great, too. So, while you’re over checking out her blog, I’m going to finish posting the rules. Please keep the chuckling to a minimum. I really do try to follow them…..

1. Share 10 things that make you happy.
2. Pass the award along to 10 friends so they can share what makes them happy.

That sounds easy enough, right? Are you snickering?

Okay. Ten things that make me happy. 

First, did you ever see Inside The Actor’s Studio? The host would always end the interview with a standardized series of questions before turning the guest loose with the audience for a q & a session. One of the questions was what sound or noise do you love. On a scrapbook page, I answered that question with the items listed in #1:

1. My husband’s voice, my brother’s laughter, and rain. (Look, right off the bat, I’ve broken a rule! Yeehaw! Well, I do have a rep to maintain!)
2. My nieces and nephews
3. My sister in law, my niece in law and all their fur and feather babies
4. Music….type depends on mood
5. Hugs and kisses from the kids in my class. Actually, the kids in my class….
6. Co-Teacher, Director, Assistant, and some of my other co-workers and some really good friends
7. All of you. Like Donna, I love your comments, your posts, that you can make my day, make me cry, make me laugh, and make me think
8. My kitties, even though they tear up the house, fill it with hair, lay all over the ‘puter (they love the noises and pictures it makes!), and use me as either a bed or a chew toy!
9. Movies and books and sleep and my Tempur topper
10. October through March-cool weather, color everywhere, family, togetherness, coziness, warm blankets, long shadows, the smells, the solitude, the crispness…..all of it.

Maybe I cheated, but I do have a list of ten. That has to count!

Blech! Here’s the hard part! Pass it to ten friends?!!!!! Hmmmm………

Oh, I give up! Dang, I am such a rebel! A non-law abiding blogger! A cyber Sinatra!

First, to ten friends who’ve really been there for me for a long while now, in no particular order:

1. Charlene at Another Painting Blog
2. Roland at Writing in the Crosshairs
3. Theresa at Substitute Teacher’s Saga
4. Aubrie at Flutey Words
5. Carla at Paper Clippings of a Wandering Artist
6. Jenny at Jenny Matlock
7. Olivia at That Rebel With a Blog
8. Vatche at The Student Writer’s Mind
9. Mary at One Perfect Bite
10. Anne at Piedmont Writer
   Bonnie at From a Writer’s Kitchen

Second, to newer friends that make an impact on me:

1. Jules at Trying to Get Over the Rainbow
2. Carol at Under the Tiki Hut
3. Coreen at Velvet Over Steel
4. Denise at L’Aussie Writing
5. Summer at ….and this time concentrate!
6. Jen at unedited
7. Nicole at Nicole Murray WIP
8. L. Diane Wolfe at Spunk on a Stick’s Tips
9. Jennie Bailey at Garden Full of Lily
10. Rafi at Escape From Apathy 
    Maryann at It’s Not All Gravy

I would love to pass this on to every single one of you. This was really really hard!

Pssssst! (If you wish to have it, just take it. I won’t tell. Promise. Look at all the rules I just broke! And I would have given it to you anyway, but I’m trying really hard to conform *wink*)

Thank you again, Donna, for thinking of me. I hope you and everyone else has a great rest of the week!

la di da di da hmm um hmm………
my new daybed
my yummy blanket/throw Honey got me one year for my birthday
my puter
lush fuzzy socks for sliding in the hallway
chips with melted cheese and salsa
grapes and cheese
my DADDY (not the donor) 
fluffy clouds

you should stop reading now….

a child’s innocent wonder
good hair days
a massage
being the help that someone needed
squirrels and chipmunks
birds in flight
gray days
homemade chicken pot pie
old movies on an early Saturday morning, wrapped in a blanket sipping hot cocoa….
the earthy smell of rain

you’re still here?

‘k. I’m going now……really……

>That Kind Of Evening


You just got home from work. It’s been a long stressful day. You’re tired. Maybe weary. There’s dinner to be cooked. Homework to be checked. Lunches to be packed….
 It’s getting cold outside.

So slow down and imagine….
A pot of soup is heating up on the stove and cheese toast is warming in the oven. The fragrance of comfort fills the room….
 Giggles and whispers float around the table, the scritch scratch of pencils on paper add punctuation to the whispering wind….
Deepening shadows caress the reds, yellows and oranges that dance over carpets of leaves in the setting sun….
 Warm bodies of innocence nestle in cozy flannel….
 Slippered feet bounce….
to quilted havens….
  Soft kisses, protective hugs, clandestine stories….
 Smothered giggles, haunted tales, streaming moonlight…..
 Dreams of adventure….
 And now….
A warm, glowing fire adds the aroma of wood smoke, calling forth possibilities from the darkness. Flames dance, mesmerizing and hypnotic….
 The sparkle of frost bejewels the landscape….
 Subtle perfume permeates enveloping water as it loosens, invites, calms….
 Candlelight flickers, illuminating imagination born from worn familiar pages….
 Gentle rain soothes from the roof….
Night beckons
Sleep visits….
The mind and body heal.

many photos from others are from all over. none are mine nor do I intend to profit in any way from them.  The moonlight cloud image from:

>I Found The Other Awards….And Lost Everything Else!!!!!


 You know, August was a pretty difficult month for me. Strep. Going back to school. Trying to find information about my class. A new class at work.

Through all the chaos that was August, I lost or misplaced many things. Lesson plans. Notes. A book I was reading. Awards and who gave them to me and what the rules were….

There were days I would come home at the end of myself and find I’d gotten an award. They would cheer me up-someone thought of me!

Now, of course, I feel terrible. I can’t remember, specifically, who presented me with these awards. I’ve looked. In Word documents. Through my desk. Through my book bag…..I cannot find the info I wrote down. 😦

I am very sorry.

The one bright side I can find is that I don’t have any rules to break.

Whenever I get one of these and I’m supposed to choose, say, five people to pass it on to, I’m terribly torn. I want to give them to everyone. I really appreciate all of you. For your support. For your encouragement. For your instruction. For making me laugh. For making me cry. For just being there….

So, this time I’m going to do what I usually wish to do.

I’m giving this award to everyone who follows me. And even those of you who just stop by for a casual visit. A great hostess often has a little something for guests when they get ready to leave, especially at the holidays. And the holidays are nearly upon us.

I am sorry I can’t remember who these are from. I hope you can forgive me. Both for losing my info and for completely, totally, breaking the intended rules.

And please don’t think that I’m just throwing these ‘out there’ willy-nilly. I really do mean for ALL of you to take these. Unless you’re the one who presented it. But make sure you take the other two.

Again, I’m sorry I don’t know who to like back to to say thank you properly. ***THANK YOU VERY MUCH. YOU MADE ME SMILE AT THE END OF A GRUELING DAY*** Honestly.

>Looking Through Bright, Blurry Glasses….


Have you ever heard that old saying, ‘The hurrier I go, the behinder I get.?” Well….

I went to the eye doctor yesterday afternoon. And you know, it’s usually a hurry up and wait kind of thing. At any kind of doctor’s office. And so it was this time.

However, the main assistant, Diane, was a complete hoot. Instead of just sitting there, I asked if I could look at frames, so she and I got up and began scouring the selection. She had a great method for picking out what looked best. It was better than purse shopping. Almost as good as book or decor shopping, and that’s saying something.

She picked out over twenty frames, and then we went through a process of elimination. And we found the perfect pair. Wow! Then we processed all the costs and before I even saw the doctor, we had the total, minus the insurance discount, and how much I needed to pay to get the glasses ordered. (I have to pay the rest when my new specs come in.) She then got all my prep work done. We were on a roll!

By that time, the doctor was ready. And here’s the point of this whole thing. The first visit to this office required an eye dilation. (It had been a loooong time since my last exam.) Doc dilated my eyes as soon as I got there, then did the exam. The second visit, no dilation. Then I skipped a year because of the house hunting. Guess what? I had to have them dilated again.

An important note: people with astigmatism keep the dilation much (much) longer than people without. My dilation lasted about ten hours!

However, this time Doc dilated them nearly at the end of the whole exam. Remembering my last experience, he put in drops that would decrease the dilation time. He did warn me that it was goopy and would cause blurry vision for a couple minutes.

Um hmmm. Either I’m completely weird with any kind of meds (I’ll have to do a post about that sometime…) or people with astigmatism also have a difficult time with the un-dilation drops. My eyes were blurry for most of the evening. Therefore, I was unable to do pretty much anything. At all. And I had a headache because of the unnatural brightness and the stress of trying to see clearly.

I did go back to work, though. Director and Assistant insisted I just hang out in the office for a while-they even turned out the lights and closed the blinds. (See, don’t I have great bosses?) When I felt okay enough (relatively speaking) to go back to my classroom, I only had six kids left. After about five minutes, Director came, divided out my kids, and said if I felt like it I could just straighten up my room and go home. Wow!

I did straighten it up, and as I punched back out to head home, Director warned me, only half jokingly, ‘don’t wreck!’

Now, I’m behinder than ever but it’s okay. I’m getting ready to head out and do some errands. Then it’s home, housework, homework, and I HOPE to get to the other awards I need to pass on.

Till then, have a great Saturday and I’ll see ya soon!

>And The Answers Are…..


It appears that I’ve forgotten that I have a homework assignment due tomorrow. I don’t even know what it is!

So, I’m posting the answers to the quotes and then I’m off to be a somewhat dutiful student (blech!).

I knew some of these would be harder; they’re from older movies, which I love. If I do this again, I’ll try to put in some more mainstream selections.


“Farm boy, fetch me that pitcher? -Princess Buttercup from The Princess Bride

“I’ve learned this much: take what you can, when you can.” -Jenner (rat) from The Secret of NIMH

“It’s a mad house! A mad house!” -George Taylor (Charlton Heston) from the original Planet of the Apes

“Is this toothbrush approved by the American Dental Association?” -Kevin from Home Alone

“I just know, before this is over, I’m gonna need a whole lot of serious therapy. Look at my eye twitchin’.” -Donkey from the first Shrek

“Repeat after me. Pepper.” -Harry from When Harry Met Sally

“Well, I’ve wrestled with reality for 35 years, Doctor, and I’m happy to state I finally won out over it.” -Elwood P. Dowd (Jimmy Stewart) from Harvey

“Yeah. Well, I got nowhere else to go. The ex-wife took the whole damn planet in the divorce. All I got left is my bones.” -Leonard “Bones” McCoy in the newest Star Trek

Some of you did pretty well, getting at least two. These are all movies I have and love. Wait, not true. I don’t have the original Planet of the Apes. I do remember seeing it on TV as a child and being really affected by it. Charlton Heston was everywhere when I was little. Like Yul Brenner, whom I also adored.

I hope you all had fun. I do want to do this again sometime. Maybe soon…..?

Hope everyone has a fantastic Friday and an even better weekend!

>Do You Know…..


 …the muffin man, the muffin man, the muffin man….

Just kidding. But here’s a hint: Riddle me this, riddle me that. Who’s afraid of a big, black bat?

Today was about laughter. I’m glad, because I’ve been in a funk and laughing is the best way to get me in a better mood. Even more than music, and that’s saying something.

I have a lot to get done, so I will visit and catch up on blogs tomorrow. I hope that’s okay with you all….

So, I was trying to think of something different, and I think I have a pretty neat idea……

I’ve posted some quotes from movies I like. WITHOUT CHEATING, see if you can figure out the movie, the character, or both. A couple are giveaways….ready?                    

“Farm boy, fetch me that pitcher?

“I’ve learned this much: take what you can, when you can.”

“It’s a mad house! A mad house!”

“Is this toothbrush approved by the American Dental Association?”

“I just know, before this is over, I’m gonna need a whole lot of serious therapy. Look at my eye twitchin’.”

“Repeat after me. Pepper.”

“Well, I’ve wrestled with reality for 35 years, Doctor, and I’m happy to state I finally won out over it.”

“Yeah. Well, I got nowhere else to go. The ex-wife took the whole damn planet in the divorce. All I got left is my bones.”

Remember, no cheating! I’m curious to see your answers……

all photos from

>Is It Time To Say "The Heck With It?"


Just a quick, short post for tonight.

When Honey and I were laid off from our jobs, we went back to school. We had lived soooo frugally, living off only one paycheck. The other was put aside and not touched. (We had seen the layoff possibility more than a year before.) I was very excited to have the opportunity I’d always wanted.

I did well in all my classes, especially the EDU ones. Okay?

Well, before I started my maths and my last elective (an English course, natch!), I had one more EDU class to take.

No offense to the people who decide which classes are necessary, but after you take a few EDU classes, they start repeating themselves. Nearly verbatim. I hated it. It was so boring. Too much paperwork about stuff I’d been taught over and over.

The course dealt largely with the responsibilities of a director. I have NO DESIRE WHATSOEVER to ever be a director. Nope, not even for a $5 raise. Not even for a $10 one. Too many mickey mouse things that you have to keep up with, turn in, fill out, etc.

This only made it more difficult to care about the class. Thus, I earned my first ‘B’. I got another one in my Sociology class, which I enjoyed immensely (the class, not the B). And our final project was a hit-not only with the class, but the prof loved it as well and said so. But I still got a ‘B’.

That was the beginning of the end of the enthusiasm. I had a fabulous teacher for my two math classes. Great. Then, I took a higher math and about that time the awful drama with the drug dealer and the drummer guy came to a breaking point. And then the terrible seller we had to deal with getting our house.

I had a breakdown one morning in the Center parking lot. Director insisted I go home.

I dropped that math class. I couldn’t do it anymore.

Now, I cannot make myself care AT ALL about my current class. It’s practically a co-op, just under a different name. I did this already! But the curriculum changed and since I was no longer current, I have to re-do it….and I’m so. burned. out. No exaggeration at all. I loathe and detest school anymore. It makes me sick. And I have a geology course in the spring. I think I’ll like that, though.

Have any of you gotten burned out somewhere? So badly that it’s almost worth it to give up and fail? Does anyone have suggestions about how I can get through this?