>Is It Time To Say "The Heck With It?"
Just a quick, short post for tonight.
When Honey and I were laid off from our jobs, we went back to school. We had lived soooo frugally, living off only one paycheck. The other was put aside and not touched. (We had seen the layoff possibility more than a year before.) I was very excited to have the opportunity I’d always wanted.
I did well in all my classes, especially the EDU ones. Okay?
Well, before I started my maths and my last elective (an English course, natch!), I had one more EDU class to take.
No offense to the people who decide which classes are necessary, but after you take a few EDU classes, they start repeating themselves. Nearly verbatim. I hated it. It was so boring. Too much paperwork about stuff I’d been taught over and over.
The course dealt largely with the responsibilities of a director. I have NO DESIRE WHATSOEVER to ever be a director. Nope, not even for a $5 raise. Not even for a $10 one. Too many mickey mouse things that you have to keep up with, turn in, fill out, etc.
This only made it more difficult to care about the class. Thus, I earned my first ‘B’. I got another one in my Sociology class, which I enjoyed immensely (the class, not the B). And our final project was a hit-not only with the class, but the prof loved it as well and said so. But I still got a ‘B’.
That was the beginning of the end of the enthusiasm. I had a fabulous teacher for my two math classes. Great. Then, I took a higher math and about that time the awful drama with the drug dealer and the drummer guy came to a breaking point. And then the terrible seller we had to deal with getting our house.
I had a breakdown one morning in the Center parking lot. Director insisted I go home.
I dropped that math class. I couldn’t do it anymore.
Now, I cannot make myself care AT ALL about my current class. It’s practically a co-op, just under a different name. I did this already! But the curriculum changed and since I was no longer current, I have to re-do it….and I’m so. burned. out. No exaggeration at all. I loathe and detest school anymore. It makes me sick. And I have a geology course in the spring. I think I’ll like that, though.
Have any of you gotten burned out somewhere? So badly that it’s almost worth it to give up and fail? Does anyone have suggestions about how I can get through this?