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>News, Updates, And Stuff

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Wow, what a summer, huh? I hope everyone is surviving the terrible heat wave we’ve been having. Although, yesterday and today have been dreamy. For me, anyway.

I have all kinds of news. First, I gotta say-I’m not too sure about the new blogger. The dashboard is weird and creating this post is interesting. By the time I finish this, I’ll now more about whether I like it or not. Anyway….some news.

When I got my tattoo, I was disappointed when the scabs came off. There were spaces with no ink, and parts were lighter than others. Everyone told me that the guy who did it doesn’t do touch-ups for free. His online reviews said the same thing. Sorry. I’m not paying someone to fix their mistakes.

I recently found someone else and had it redone. Guess what? I have ink in all the right places! And no weird shading, either. Yay! Know what else? She said that if there were still spaces or shades, she would fix it. For free. Um hmm. She will get all my business in the future. (Yes, NOW I can plan for my next one *happy face!*)

In other news, my former teacher GOT ME INTO THE CLASS!!!! Yes, Friends, I will be graduating in December. Finally!

Now for writing news. My intended goals have been shelved and that’s okay. I’m not good at forcing creativity. The new shiny I mentioned before is patiently waiting and I really hope to begin working on it again before the summer is over.

To date, I’ve written 4 short stories and I have 2 more that I really want to get completed. I’ve learned a few things during this process. For example, I can’t write humor. My hat is off to those of you who can.

Fortunately, my Muse knows this and steers my path into other directions. Basically meaning that the ideas I’ve started with have consistently morphed into something else. I’ve also discovered how difficult it is to keep short stories short. William found several magazines who want stories between 3 and 6K, and a few more that want them up to 8k. I’m averaging 4+ to just over 6k.

The weird thing is, just like during nano, I’m finding naptime at work to be extremely conducive to writing. Yay for sleeping children 🙂

Speaking of weirdness, I’m ready for this:

Yep, the rainy, cloudy weather we’ve had the last 2 days has put me in the mood for fall and all its accouterments. Part of it may be my desire to leave summer behind and get on with cooler weather. (Okay, a lot of it!)

Mostly, though, it’s because I like to decorate the house in fall and winter. I don’t really do much decorating in spring and summer….

Lastly, has anyone seen the new Harry Potter movie? If you’re planning to go, a word of advice. Take Kleenex. Especially if you’ve read the books, because you’ll be able to appreciate what’s happening on a deeper level. Yes, there are changes and differences, but it’s still a wonderful ending to the series. I want to go back.

One of the things I really liked about it was these guys finally got their due in the movies…..

That’s it for now. I hope you’re home, cause I’m dropping by for a visit!

>HEY!!!!!

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Well, more like a quick visit to say hello and see what’s going on with everyone. 

It’s been a little crazy the last several weeks. Initially, I took time off to work on my two wip’s. Part of the way in, I realized that Tangi had backed off again, though I did manage to get several scenes written and a few others sketched out. Hopefully, they can be used. ***update: as I was writing this, she showed me something!***

With the nano book, I rewrote the beginning (I learned that agents won’t read anything beginning with someone waking from a nightmare.) The new intro is actually much better than the original, so that’s a plus. Then, I found myself rewriting the whole thing, not something I have time for and it was loosing something in the retelling. So I decided that I would try and just rewrite pages at a time.

Finding how difficult and time consuming that was becoming, I decided to put both wip’s on hold and follow another idea. (Can you spot the ADHD coming into play here?) One that I’m keeping under wraps for right now. But the neat thing was that it would be quicker and aimed at a wider target. Cool, right? Well, it was cool, for about a week. I was 10,653 words into the new project when the A/C went out. During the hottest week in May. (Director’s father said his porch read 103 degrees F.)  And the prednisone was still coursing wildly through my system. Yep, a total meltdown occurred. At one point, I simply started crying and was unable to stop. *Sigh*

Since about the age of 14, I’ve been unable to abide extreme heat. I’m told it’s probably a hormonal thing. I’m no better than a wrung out dish rag. So all writing/blogging/and facebooking came to a screeching halt. Eight days later, we had air again *silent prayer of thanksgiving* but the damage was done. I’d lost all my motivation. The writing train had derailed. Three weeks passed. Not one word written.

Till William came back to the Center for the summer! He’s my only face-to-face friend that writes and understands/gets excited about all things writerly. He’d done some research about short stories and where to submit them. Since we’re both pushed for time, we decided to concentrate on shorts, working on the wip’s when time allowed or the muses insisted. We’re both writing like crazy and I’m finding it fun and challenging. I’m finding he’s also quite the crit buddy!

Since this is a longer weekend, I hope to get a few more written, (I’ve sketched out ideas for several!) then concentrate on polishing them up. I also want to resume work on the new shiny, finishing it if I can. Ambitious, but the summer is passing quickly and I want as much to show for my time off as possible.

That’s pretty much what’s been going on as far as writing goes. During the A/C – prednisone drama, I reverted to my bad emotional eating habits and paid for it in spades. Consuming an estimated 3 to 4 thousand mg’s of sodium caused the wicked-bad migraines to return. Lesson learned. I’ve had my tatt redone (when it healed, there were blank spaces) and Honey finally had time to do some landscaping in the front of the house (I looks a lot better).

Work has been almost non-stop activities/happenings/events, but this week was really mellow. Lots of families on vacay, so I got to come home early yesterday (Friday). A couple of our kiddos are having some serious health issues and could use some positive thoughts and prayers, please. (I can’t mention names or conditions, sorry.)

Right now, I’m going to get some of my Saturday stuff done and then I’ll see if the Muse is with me. If she is, I’ll be writing for most of the afternoon and early evening. Then, I’ll be around to visit. I’ve missed you guys!!!!  If Ms. Muse is absent, I’ll visit sooner!

My weekend plans? To see Transformers! And I’m sooooooo looking forward to HP7 part II. The last trailer makes me cry. 

So, how have ya’ll been?

>My Tinkerbell Theory (Long-ish, But With A Surprise At The End)

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I do believe in fairies, I do! I do!

You ever have those days when it seems like you’re all alone in your quest for your dream? And everything and everyone is pulling at you from all possible directions and, when you finally do get to a quiet, peaceful moment, you’re too tired or too fuzzy to think creatively?

I’m not saying that there aren’t people around me who wish me well in my creative endeavor. It’s just that most of them have a lot going on in their lives and just don’t have the energy. They do want to know how it’s going, but, really, I can’t expect them to get all giddy about getting four thousand words written when they have to spend their evening going to a dozen sporting events, cooking dinner, and making sure everyone’s homework is finished. Some of my friends understand that trying to write something is hard, and they respect that. There are those who believe you can just pull the words out of your head and be published in a few months. I wish! But, really, they don’t understand what it takes, or what it costs.

It’s just not everyone’s thing. Like baseball isn’t mine. Honey is a great ball player and I would go watch some of his games if he played in a league. But come the hottest part of summer, I’d have to think of other ways to be supportive from time to time. Me and summer – we ain’t cool. And Honey would be fine with that. He knows that summer is not my thing.

Not everyone writes. So people don’t generally understand the emotional highs and lows, the ever plaguing doubts and insecurities, and the need to try, even if the dream of becoming published and successful inches farther and farther away every day.

I do have one friend who gets it, but he’s a college student. My co-teacher’s son, William. He’s an aspiring writer who plans to masquerade as a history teacher. The rare moments we get to see each other, there’s not enough time in the world to share our successes and failures and ideas, etc. But it’s good, for a few minutes, to speak the same language, to have the same understanding, you know?

That’s just one of the many, many reasons I’m so thankful to have all of you. Whether you know it or not, you help me. You inspire and encourage me. By commenting and commiserating; by going before and throwing breadcrumbs liberally behind you; and you even take a few minutes to read and offer feedback when I hesitantly put something up that’s writing, not just posting.

And what makes it even more special, is that you offer your time and support regularly, even with just plain ol’ everyday life stuff.

I don’t remember what made me think of Tinkerbell the other day, but when I did, I had this image of all of you. Of us; our little cyber-social world. Most of us are not what I call ‘face-to-face’ friends. We’ll likely never meet (except if you live in my state, it would really be cool!), but we still get to know each other a bit. I miss it when I can’t visit more regularly. I miss you when you’re gone for a while. There have been occasions when people have left permanently, one way or another, and I’ve been genuinely sad.

As I thought about Tinkerbell, I began to wonder. Sure, we blog for all sorts of reasons, but…..do you think – is there a bit of Tinkerbell inside us all? Inside of me?

I can only answer for myself. And I would have to say yes, I do believe there is a bit of her in me. Or, rather, I’m a little like her….somewhere. I get weary and tired. Especially when it comes to writing and trying to figure out some of the what if’s and the what now’s and so forth. Not to mention the self-sabotaging I do sometimes. And there isn’t anyone who understands. They want to, but, like I said before, it’s just not their thing. I love them for their desire to help and if their support is in the form of clearing the way for me to write uninterrupted and without any fuss because the dishes aren’t washed, then that’s fabulous to me *waving and blowing a kiss to Honey!*

I think that’s part of what makes you guys so special. You do understand. When one of us has fallen down because of rejections, or a block, or illness, or whatever, we clap our hands and remind each other that we do believe, we do believe! We remind each other that there are people out there, somewhere, tethered to a computer in a room, typing, and going through similar things. And that we’re not alone.

Hope is offered. So is understanding. Often, sound advice and creative ideas are, too. Sometimes a laugh, which always helps. {{{{hugs}}}} are priceless.

Pretty soon, even if a solution isn’t in sight, a warm glow fills us and we revive, ready to try again. Just because someone, somewhere, believes…….

So thank you, my friends, for all the times you clap for me. Just know that I’m clapping for you, too. I do believe! I do believe!


So, for all of you who regularly come by and visit, sharing wisdom and laughter and commiseration, this is for you. No rules. Just a thank you. I really, really mean it. It’s yours. Share it with whomever you choose.





BTW, image gotten from imagebase.davidniblack.com. a free image source. Way cool site.

>Caution: Evil Lurking Ahead!!!!!

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Have you ever had the pleasure of taking a significant round of Prednisone? Well, let me tell you. See this kitty on the left? That’s pretty much how it makes me feel on the inside.

All sorts of evil and mean things run through my mind and try to come out of my mouth, but I believe I do a pretty good job keeping them behind my teeth. At least no one has ever told me otherwise. And I’m sure it’s not because they’re afraid of me or anything like that.

See, I was nine days into my antibiotic (for the previously mentioned severe congestion, sinus and ear infections). Nine days. The first antibiotic was omnicef. Not sure I spelled that right. Don’t really care. The point is that one gave me a wicked migraine and, um….tummy issues. So the good doctor gives me a sulfur based one. I took it for nine days. Just one more day to go and I would be free!

Thursday night, I’m getting ready to take a shower and go to bed. A little TMI coming up……I take off my capris and said a couple blue words. I was covered in red, mean looking dots. Holy crap, Batman! They’re all over me, literally, from scalp to feet. And suddenly, I’m aware of them. They itch and burn.

I call Director and we both believe it’s a reaction to the med. Friday at the Center is gonna be a hectic one-one teacher out and another substituting in the lunchroom. Plus, it’s our Mother’s Day celebration in which moms, grandmoms, aunts, and pretty much anyone else is invited to join us for breakfast, lunch, and/or snack. So I can’t be out. Director would never tell me that. I just knew how much she needed everyone to be there.

However, as soon as she sees me, she tells me to stay as long as I feel like it then go to the doctor. Evangeline strongly encouraged me to get an appointment asap (thanks!) and I left as soon as her break was over. The good doc was worried. He said it could be a serious thing to react to a sulfur based drug so he gave me a shot and a big ol’ round of evil making pills.

Except for Saturday, so far, I’ve not been too bad emotionally. Well……I could be wrong. My Mother’s Day post was kind of dark. And this feels a bit whiny. Hmmmm. Maybe I’m not being as vigilant as I thought I was. Sorry. And as I reread this, I think my verb tenses are all over the place, dang! Ah well….

Anyway, all that to explain where I’ve been the last several days, and likely for several more. Plus, I’ve actually been slowly plugging away at the two wips. I’ve added 4k to Tangi’s story and there’s more to put on the ‘puter. I’m doing a lot of longhand writing during nap time (when I can). I have another scene to add to Tangi and I’m sort of rewriting the nano, ugh.

So, that’s what I’ve been up to and where I’ll likely be. I’ll pop in unexpectedly when I can. Till then, take care and be safe! Have a great week 🙂

OH, PS!!! Guess what my bp was? Well, in spite of the painful condition I was in, as well as the anxiety attacks brought on by the benedryl I was taking (antihistamines do it to me) it was 130 over 80, wow! Yay!!!! Now, I just have to incorporate regular exercise into my new-ish diet and it will be even better *happy dance* ‘K, just wanted to share something good. TTFN 🙂

>PLEASE………

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Hahahaha, no. I’m NOT pole dancing. Although I could probably make a considerable amount of $$$ from people paying me to stop, lol!!!

Ahem. Friends, I’ve come to a difficult decision. Do you believe in signs? I do. Eventually.

For all kinds of reasons, I believe it’s time for me to put up or shut up with my writing. My nano novel has been gathering dust since the first of December. My first, and favorite wip, is struggling to be born.

In the fall, I will have to sharply curtail my blogging and any writing I’m doing because of the class I’ll (hopefully) be taking. I’ve heard everyone say it’s pretty intense. But it’s science. I like science, so I’m optimistic.

All that said, I’ve decided that I need to really really for real, focus on my writing. It’s hard for me to quit something. Like this challenge, for example. But I have to. My goal is to have two completed rough drafts before classes start in August. Rough drafts that can be sent out for critiquing.

And I really believe this is the right decision because today, I re-wrote the beginning of the nano novel, and it’s pretty good. At least according to some of my co-workers. And they’re passionate readers. And as I was preparing dinner, another kink worked itself out with the first wip.

I feel that to keep the writing on the back burner would be a mistake. I’d miss this opening window.

I hope all of you will understand. I’ll be around on the weekends. Some. It’s pretty impossible for me to stay completely away.

So, that’s basically it for now. Until Saturday or Sunday. Take care, have fun, look for me when you least expect it 🙂

>Updates, Thanks, And A Coming Soon

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I wish this desk (and room) belonged to me. I got this pic from morguefile.com and it’s labeled ‘gov_mansion,’ which leads me to believe it’s an historic site.

It’s appropriately moody looking, don’t you think? Don’t know what I would use the keys for, though….perhaps to lock away cool new ideas? Or, maybe if my muse gets really talkative, she could lock me away and just write for me! Yeah, that would be interesting for sure!

Anyway. First, thank you to everyone who stopped by to convey condolences to Roland for Gypsy. I still can hardly bear to think about it…..

Second, an update about that class. Assistant Director made the call – to another former teacher of mine who’s now in charge of the EDU dept. Said teacher vowed to get me into the class. There is hope at the end of this weary-making tunnel after all!

Third, I didn’t go to the doctor yesterday. Except for a stuffy nose and an occasional cough, I actually feel much, much better. Thanks for all the well wishes!

Fourth, I may not be on here too much today. A little housework, a trip to the grocery, and then….some writing! I’ve been making all kinds of progress on wip #1 through outlining, and I want to get as much of it written down as possible. If I have to sacrifice some days from the A to Z, well, I hope you’ll forgive me.

This story has been in my brain-pan for over three years now and if parts of it are resolving themselves, I have to go with them. It wants to be written.

In the meantime, I hope you’re haivng, had, will have (allowing for time zone differences here) a wonderful, relaxing, fun, peaceful, healing weekend!

WAIT!!!!! I almost forgot! I have an idea that’s been really stewing in my mind for nearly a month now. An idea for a separate blog. I know I’ve totally neglected the poetry blog, and I hope to rectify that shortly.

But this would be something completely different…..just a head’s up. I don’t know how wide of an appeal it will have, I’m just feeling the need to do it, you know? But before I can, I have to go digging through some really old stuff….it’s not as mysterious as it sounds, honest. It will be a weekly thing…..not a daily one, which is good.

Okay, that’s it for now. I think!

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I just wanted to get a quick update out here….

There may be a couple days in April when I’ll be late visiting blogs. We have a staff meeting, a fund-raising yard sale, and a couple other work related things going on during the upcoming month. But I will still get around and visit. It just may be a bit faster and perhaps a couple less blogs….

As for this week, a couple things. I can’t seem to kick this darned headache, so I didn’t visit anyone Monday. Plus I had a few errands to run and that put me behind.

And, I’ve been busy scheduling posts. So far, I’m up through ‘J’. I hope to have the awards post up by Wednesday, and I’ll do most of my pre-A to Z visiting then. If I can’t find time to do the awards post, I will save it until the end of the month, or perhaps for a Sunday.

Otherwise, it will be pretty light around here until Friday, when the blogfest kicks off.

How about you? Are you ready? I just read that it’s now at 600+ bloggers participating. W. O. W. That’s pretty awesome!


BTW, my posts are going to be pretty short and relate to things that are in some way favorites of mine. I hope you enjoy them 🙂

>My Kinda-Sorta Sunday Plans……..

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Wow, yesterday was a very long, but fun day. The class, I’m happy to say, was really fun. And active. I was ready for bed as soon as I got home……but the day wasn’t over yet.

Honey’s knee acted up at the cookout, but he still ‘whooped’ Furby at ping pong.

And I…..I managed to actually get some writing done. On my favorite wip! Yay!!!

I don’t know if it was because it was so late, or because I was so tired, but when I read the last few pages I’d written (some time ago, mind you) I couldn’t remember writing them. Strange.

It’s chilly, wet, and gray outside. My favorite kind of day in the whole wide world. Gonna fly through a little housework, get a shower and do a few errands, arrange for some face time with Brother, Pooh, and Squirmy, then I’m gonna write. For a few hours I hope.

I will also be coming around to see what you all are up to. This will be the giant push before A to Z starts. Which reminds me. I’ve got some awards to pass around…..gotta get on that before the first!

Are you ready?

Happy Lazy Sunday!!!

>I Fought The Ides…And I Won!!!

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Monday was crazy. I mentioned that, right? It was also Brother’s birthday. Happy birthday, Brother!!!

Tuesday was the Ides of March. That would explain a lot. 

Have you ever had something happen so fast that you didn’t have time to be angry about it? And it turned out to be a good thing, because you’d have done something stupid? On the way to work this morning, a car was apparently so close on my rear that I couldn’t even see the glow of his headlights! DANG!!!! I didn’t know he was there till he tried to go around me. Dummy. The car I was following wasn’t going anywhere, so neither could he. *smirk*

Normally, I would have brake-checked him. Good thing I didn’t see him. He was so close, it would have been a wreck for sure! And I never want that to happen!!!

Then, I get to work and one of my little babies threw up. From our classroom, to the bathroom, and then some (a lot) more. And, wonder of wonders, I didn’t get sick! I’ve never been able to do throw-up, but it didn’t bother me this time. Hmmm….

I also left my wallet at home. *sigh* Yeah…a wreck would have been all kinds of awful. I had to drive all the way home this evening, pick up my wallet, drive all the way across town to get the kitties some food, then come back home and cook dinner. Sheesh!

I cooked. I cleaned. I put away laundry. I washed dishes. I put dishes away. I cleaned the kitty feeder. I mixed food and filled up the feeder. I de-cluttered. I (spot) mopped. I emptied the little trash cans. This evening, I rocked!!!

The Ides of March may have struck the first few blows, but I finished the day on top, so there!

Gonna go pass out now. Wait! I gotta make salad for tomorrow! Waaaaaa!!!!! Yay!!!!

So, how did you fare on this fateful day?

****Edit**** Before anyone ‘yells’ at me about safety, know this: a. I never, EVER tailgate. Ever. b. I tap the brakes enough to make the light come on. c. I always stay out of people’s way. Always. and d. Amazingly, the majority of people doing the tailgating that I see are moms. With mini vans. With kids in the car! Cutting people off and pulling out right in front of people and running red lights!!!!! Thank God for car seats, dang!

*yawning* G’night!

>My New Year’s Wish…..

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Well. It’s New Year’s Eve.

This is traditionally a time of reflection and of looking ahead…..

Looking back:

This has been a hard year for me in many ways. Not a bad year, mind you. Just hard….

I’ve had to let go of things, of people, of dreams…..

It’s seemed as if every teeny, tiny thing was an epic battle, no exaggerating. I pinky promise.

And my hormones are wreaking havoc on my emotional state. I know what it is, I’m just not ready to face that particular reality. TMI, I know…but I’m looking back here….

One of the hardest things about this year, for me, has been Honey’s jobs. He had been working for a satellite company, which would have him out till whenever, and in all sorts of weather conditions. I hated it and so did he; but we were both thankful that he had a job.

Then, he got a job working with his BFF. He absolutely loves it. And he’s not in the weather. But, where before he had three days off every week, he now only has one. And the hours are just as long….

Still, there have been many wonderful things about the year:

Squirmy was born.
Director’s husband is cancer free.
Roo came into our lives.
My family is healthy and employed.
I’m fortunate enough to love the people I work with and for.
My husband loves his job and works with and for great people, too.
We paid off a lot of debt.
We have a home. And heat. And food.
I began writing. I wrote a book (nano).
And I met all of you….

That’s not too bad, huh?

As for resolutions, I gave those up long ago. They’re exercises in failure.

In February, I decided to write. And I have. It was my only goal for the year.

This coming year, I’m concentrating on The Follow-Through. That encompasses many things for me.

If I can manage to follow-through on at least one thing a day, it will be a success. And success is measured in small victories. I intend to build upon those small victories……I’m going to make success a habit. It only takes twenty-one days for a thing to become a habit, did you know that?

So, for the coming year, I wish for us all the healthy habit of success….

Successful in our relationships….
Successful in our work….
Successful in our creativity….
Successful in our letting go of negative things….
Successful in our endeavor to become better selves….
Successful in our healing….
Successful in our courage….

I’ve not put periods at the ends of any of these sentences because they’re open to interpretation. Healing for me may be different from healing for you….and we all have various things in our lives that require courage….

I am being courageous (more than you know) in hoping these things. I want them for all of you, but hoping them for myself…..that’s a big deal.

And for me, it will be all about The Follow-Through…..and the key will be not focusing on all these things I’ve listed or looking at the big picture. It will be about focusing on one thing at a time; doing it; completing it; and moving to the next thing….and success will simply be the natural by-product….

So, my New Year’s Wish is simply this:

I hope for all of you that this new year will hold many successes, in many forms, and so abundantly that you will have to begin heaping it onto others…..and still have so much left over that you can just wallow in it from time to time….